Survivors and the Holocaust

Joy of liberation at Dachau

From the time I was diagnosed with cancer to almost five years later today, I have gained strength from reading about the Holocaust. I’d consider the horrific suffering of those who survived and think: If some could survive that, I can surely get through cancer. It’s not “nothing,” but cancer is minuscule, perhaps nothing, by comparison. As I looked at […]

Illness and Denial

Three monkeys

Even as your body betrays you, your mind denies it. –Sara Gruen, Water for Elephants Religion is the sigh of the oppressed creature, the heart of a heartless world, and the soul of soulless conditions. It is the opium of the people.  –Karl Marx I have a friend who I’ll refer to as “R.” He […]

Games We Play With Doctors

Alfred E. Neumann

My primary physician likes to paint. She’s not actually an artist, but she takes a stab with her paint-by-numbers kit. Her brush strokes stay meticulously within the lines. She chooses prescribed numbers because doctors love prescriptions. She can’t deviate from the numbers anyhow. They guide her. They’re safe. They’re proven. They’re what she knows. There […]

Of Life and Battles

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I’m deeply saddened to learn that Lisa Bonchek Adams passed away last night. Anyone who has read her blog knows of her beautiful prose, the love for her husband and children, and the honest no-sugar-coated way she chronicled the disease to which she ultimately succumbed. A lot of people in the cancer community detest the word “battle” when used […]

Lesley Gore and Me

lesley-gore-its-my-party-mercury

Lesley Gore died last Monday from lung cancer. No doubt, she made a big mark in music history. To this day, You Don’t Own Me is sung as an self-empowering anthem. But the song that evokes rich memories for me is It’s My Party. I was born in October of 1956. I grew up during the Vietnam War, Civil Rights […]

Moving Forward

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I don’t know when it happened, but sometime within the last couple of months, I didn’t want to write about breast cancer anymore. I went from feeling on fire, a hot shot of espresso, to a milked-down latte. I thought, What the hell? What happened? I think I figured it out. I passed a milestone in […]

Memorial for Maxwell

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You may have read my post about my friend Maxwell, who died from cancer last November. On Saturday, I went to a memorial for him attended by roughly 30 of his friends. A friend of mine accompanied me, but otherwise, I didn’t know the others in the room, nor did most of them know each other. We were brought […]

500 Dates by Mark Miller (A book review)

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Let me say from the start that 500 Dates by Mark Miller has nothing to do with cancer. Its 55 essays explore the dating world of single adults with heart, humor and insight. But stay with me and I’m betting you’ll laugh. Out loud. And hard. That’s because Mark is a funny man. And I should know. I […]

Dad, Chemo and Me

January 7 was the anniversary of my father’s death 24 years ago. I suppose his death certificate cited cancer, lymphoma specifically, as the cause of death, but it seemed clear chemo was the real culprit. The doctors were optimistic they had successfully blasted the renegade cancer cells in his body. Two more chemos to go and he’d […]

Happy New Year 2015

SF New Year 2012

Out with the old and in with the new. May whatever didn’t work in 2014 find the transformation that makes it function better in the new year. May the rough edges be smooth. And if there’s fireworks, may they be the kind that’s pretty. Happy new year everyone. I wish you peace within and all good things. Love, Eileen Like […]

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