Post-Election Self Care

Feeling stressed out since the election? I know I am. Emotions run high on all sides of the political spectrum. Facebook and other social media feel like venting pots for anger, grief, and blame. Petitions and calls to action fill my inbox. Voicing our concerns and indignation is important, but I’ve had to pull back. […]

Burn-Out and Vacation

It’s no secret I’ve been burned out, plagued by exhaustion, struggling through work while coping with CFIDS, which I’m certain was triggered by the trauma of cancer and all the other falling apart of life as I’d known it. In other words, the collateral damage. Relief is on its way. I’m going on a long-needed two-week vacation. […]

Fatigue, Pain and Quiet

I needed a break from my blog, but I miss writing. I miss continuing the book that is my work-in -progress. I feel so brain dead much of the time. Actually, I hear my coherent thoughts, ideas and inspiration, but mostly don’t have the energy to execute them in a way that’s all that interesting. I decided to write […]

Survivors, Suffering and Suicide

Last week there was some stir about a post on Metavivor that stated breast cancer survivors “have a medical year to endure and life goes back to normal.” The article stated that the early stager’s problems pale next to the metastatic patient (yes, absolutely true), but then goes on to describe the survivor’s problem as fear […]

Hair and Other Waking Things

Insane, I know, but after a long slumber, my hair woke up. Five years after my last chemo, new hair is growing back, again. Of course, it grew back earlier on. I posted a photo journal here. Apparently I’m not done. Around Thanksgiving five years ago, I had the last drip of Taxol that would signal the […]

New Year Healing

I’m not a particularly religious person, but I do enjoy services on Rosh Hashanah, the Jewish New Year. This year, as the rabbi went through the service and the congregants followed in prayer books, we heard the same familiar words recited every new year, but when we came to the prayer known as the Shehecheyanu, I had a moment […]

How Old Do You Feel?

And I will never grow so old again. — Van Morrison, Sweet Thing I’ve been part of a dance community for 20-plus years. Back in the day, we would say: I’m always going to dance, even when I’m old. It keeps you young. There was an implied belief that if you just keep dancing, you will defy the process of aging and […]

Perceptions of Beauty

My latest mammogram report noted the “architectural deformity” in my right breast. I guess it won’t be showcased in Architectural Digest any time soon. Reading one’s own medical records is like peeking into another’s private diary in which he or she gossips about you. It’s strange to read someone else’s words about the most private aspects of […]

Five Year Survival…But Who’s Counting?

It’s right about the five-year mark for when I was diagnosed with breast cancer. While I’m grateful to be alive, I see no need to celebrate as if I’d hit a milestone. I know many have had recurrences within the five-year mark and, sadly, are not with us any longer. I just understand that I’m never out […]

Therapy Dogs

The short video below is about a therapy dog named Nala. We’ve all heard stories about therapy dogs, but this one really got my attention. The dog is let loose in a nursing home and intuitively knows who needs her and where to go. This brings back a wonderful memory from my chemo days. I was somewhere in the middle of treatment. I’d […]

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